Somewhere I Belong

When this began,

I had nothing to say,

And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me,

I was confused,

And I let it all out to find,

That I'm not the only person with these things in mind,

Inside of me,

But all that they can see the words revealed,

Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel,

Nothing to lose,

Just stuck, hollow and alone,

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own,

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real,

I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long,

Erase all the pain till it's gone,

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real,

I wanna find something I've wanted all along,

Somewhere I belong,

And I've got nothing to say,

I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face,

I was confused,

Looking everywhere only to find,

That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind,

So what am I,

What do I have but negativity,

'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me,

Nothing to lose,

Nothing to gain, hollow and alone,

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own,

I will never know myself until I do this on my own,

And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed,

I will never be anything till I break away from me,

I will break away, I'll find myself today,

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong,

Somewhere I belong

Thanks

The Farewell

What does it feel like when I'm gone? What would happen to my friends back home? What, what would happen to me?

No, it's nothing. It all started when I was on my bed, wondering, what would happen if I migrate somewhere? Yes, I know this was a similar story before. I apologize about that old story, it wasn't my fault but it got cancelled by some reason. This time, it's more of a possibility. I can't really say if this is 100% true or what but if it is, I'm sorry. That's all I could say.

Just know that deep inside, I'm sad about this. I would never want to leave my friends behind.

Marshall Mathers once said

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn, Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain,Just smile back

So smile and I'll smile back. And don't worry about me, I'll be fine

Haters Gonna Hate

It wasn't my fault. I don't mind. All I know was I did my bloody best, and then we had a mutual agreement. Nothing much. And now, you're hating me for what I did to her? Yeah, smart move. Okay, go ahead hate me all you want. Think whatever you want. She forgave me, dammit. I forgave her a long time ago. We're friends now. There's no meat between us so could you just please stop being the thorn stuck in my life. It hurts to know that some one hates you, you know. And I hate that. So, please? We didn't do wrong. I didn't do wrong.

Up to you

SSA

Yeah, that's my next target. I'm joining that club, for real. It's my passion, my love. Shooting, yeah. And have you ever heard of the M82 Barrett? I'm sure I've posted one of those hotties here. Gotta love that lovely rifle.

When that thing is in my hands. Something is bound to get destroyed

Btw, SSA means Selangor Shooting Association. Just wish me luck for anyting that would happen. 

Battlefield!

27th of November. The day started of with my daily Subuh prayer after mom woke me up. And then continued to sleep for a while. Then, mommy woke me up at 8 and got ready with myself and my spare clothes and got breakfast. Breakfast wasn't much as I was bloody anxious of the battlefield. Yeah, the battlefield.

And then I travelled to the Megat's residency. As I arrived I saw Khan Hamidy and Megat Nasir playing co-op on UC3. And yeah, it's been a quite long time since I've seen Khan. So, we were there waiting for Redzuan perhaps. After all has been set, we're good to go and we go! Mid journey, there was this douche, almost hit the front bumper and when we honked, he was pissed. WTF man?

Arriving at Mid Valley, we headed off to Galactic Laser, the place for the game. Well, we just hang around and Nasir dragged us up for a not-so-aerial view of the dark, gruesome playground. Lol, overness. And then we were waiting for Faiq, he was walking from KK. It took him long =P No offence yeah brother? After a rendezvous with him. We entered the place. Paid RM50 and got myself into my spare which is the Barca jersey and yeah Redzuan had the urge to 'melee' me in the warzone. Heck, it knew it was intense so I knew it was going to be wet. Not that kinda wet though.

The A-Team
From left: Nasir, Redzuan, Khan, Faiq

Briefing was done and first round was a Free-For-All match and I was damned like shit. What? It was my first time right? First round goes like this, I was trying out the laser gun thingy a.k.a phaser, I guess. Seems nice as I'm used to guns and war, in games only mind you. I got the aiming part down. And I believed that reaction time had alot to do with my survival. First round starts! I ran up to corners hiding from sight, shooting people who were oblivious to my presence behind them. "Rapid Fire", the gun exclaimed, signifying I achieved a killstreak of three. And yes, it didn't last as long I as I expected but yeah I love it. And the best part in the first match was I get to pwn a camper! Yeah, effing camper! He was like "Damn you!" and I replied "Fucking camper!". And there were more. Next we check the scores and I was deemed 4th. Hey, that's not bad for a n00b is it? And we took our rest for a while.

Second round was a Team Deathmatch match. We were Red team. Feels like BF3! Entering the arena and we chose to cover one spot as it increased our chance of survival, and prevailing perhaps. And when the round started, we got off to a very sweet start. Yeah, no offence but those guys weren't much of a challenge this round as they intruded our territory one-by-one. We just shoot that's all. It all was good until they raided our position. We had to split and there was my, and our, downfall. I got cornered on the top floor, by a girl. Such humiliation. After the round ended, we were still the first team. Yeah, we own.

Third team was a Squad Deathmatch as we were divided into three teams. We were Blue and we were perfectly grouped, no other stranger were there. Again, we entered the warzone, chose our spot and then there were kids ruining our surprise factor. We were quite hidden from plain sight. No, we aren't ninjas, just we took cover. Match starts! And we dittoed the last match's strategy. We did quite well until there were campers on the top floor and chasers. FYI, chasing is forbidden. NOOBS! Nothing much to say about this round. Except that this was the WORST round out of the three.

The worthy opponents

Post-match Drake

Tired Faiq

The Champ!

The Epic Team

All in all, Laser Tag was damn fun. Quite the addiction.

The New Addiction

Nothing new in life? Hell no! I got the best thing on Earth ever, since slice bread, no, even precise since Uncharted 2: Among Thieves. Here, the awesome masterpiece!

Current Wallpaper =)

I was surprised this was on my bed

Better this than women on my bed =P

Drake! We love you!

All Men Dream, But Not Equally

"All men dream: but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dreams with open eyes, to make it possible. "

T.E. Lawrence 

Yes, it's undeniable that we all dream. But we are the 'night dreamers', we never stood up to our challenge. Yeah, it's a fact. So what's with all this? Well, it's the calm before the storm, the light before the darkness, the peace before the war. Yes, the examination, SPM, is less than a year for me, for 0812. And I solemnly swear that this will be the epic ending. And I will be that 'dreamers of the day'. I will bring the achievement to my self and my family. And I will stand among the standers. And I won't fall!

Thank you Nathan Drake for teaching me values I've never come to notice in this life. You are one of the awesome-est person I've ever knew.

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