Friday, 23 December 2011

Somewhere I Belong

When this began,
I had nothing to say,
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me,
I was confused,
And I let it all out to find,
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind,
Inside of me,
But all that they can see the words revealed,
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel,
Nothing to lose,
Just stuck, hollow and alone,
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own,

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real,
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long,
Erase all the pain till it's gone,
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real,
I wanna find something I've wanted all along,
Somewhere I belong,

And I've got nothing to say,
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face,
I was confused,
Looking everywhere only to find,
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind,
So what am I,
What do I have but negativity,
'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me,
Nothing to lose,
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone,
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own,

I will never know myself until I do this on my own,
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed,
I will never be anything till I break away from me,
I will break away, I'll find myself today,

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong,
Somewhere I belong


Tuesday, 13 December 2011

The Farewell

What does it feel like when I'm gone? What would happen to my friends back home? What, what would happen to me?

No, it's nothing. It all started when I was on my bed, wondering, what would happen if I migrate somewhere? Yes, I know this was a similar story before. I apologize about that old story, it wasn't my fault but it got cancelled by some reason. This time, it's more of a possibility. I can't really say if this is 100% true or what but if it is, I'm sorry. That's all I could say.

Just know that deep inside, I'm sad about this. I would never want to leave my friends behind.

Marshall Mathers once said

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn, Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling,And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain,Just smile back
So smile and I'll smile back. And don't worry about me, I'll be fine

Tuesday, 6 December 2011

Haters Gonna Hate

It wasn't my fault. I don't mind. All I know was I did my bloody best, and then we had a mutual agreement. Nothing much. And now, you're hating me for what I did to her? Yeah, smart move. Okay, go ahead hate me all you want. Think whatever you want. She forgave me, dammit. I forgave her a long time ago. We're friends now. There's no meat between us so could you just please stop being the thorn stuck in my life. It hurts to know that some one hates you, you know. And I hate that. So, please? We didn't do wrong. I didn't do wrong.

Up to you

Saturday, 3 December 2011


Yeah, that's my next target. I'm joining that club, for real. It's my passion, my love. Shooting, yeah. And have you ever heard of the M82 Barrett? I'm sure I've posted one of those hotties here. Gotta love that lovely rifle.

When that thing is in my hands. Something is bound to get destroyed

Btw, SSA means Selangor Shooting Association. Just wish me luck for anyting that would happen.